Anita Okanigbe-John

The One I Love

I haven’t been active on social media lately and that’s because I spent the major part of the year in and out of the hospital. Since doctors couldn’t find anything major wrong with me, I was told to avoid stress and do nothing but rest.

During this period, I couldn’t do much for the one I love as much as I wanted to. The painful part was that he didn’t do much for me either. So I have been brewing over this for the past few days like a storm cloud. Finally this morning I woke up ready to give up on the relationship I’ve worked so hard to build.

Although before now, we’ve had challenges in the past few months, which seem to make the decision to give up easy for me. But the intoxicating love I feel pulls me ever so strongly and makes it difficult to throw in the tower. ‘How can I feel so much love for this individual despite the pain I’ve gone through on account of him’? I sometimes ask myself.

First, I fell in love with him long before I understood who he really was and now it seems I can’t live without him.

Right from the very beginning, I knew my purpose and calling was tied to him. It was obvious that I can only truly be myself when I am with him. He understands my craziness, allows me to be myself, gives me the freedom to use my imaginative/creative ability and gives me the wing to fly as high as I desire and the best part, he believes in me even when I don’t believe in myself. What more can I ask for?

I’ve been called ‘crazy girl’ for letting go someone who didn’t love me but was sure to bring in paycheck at the end of the month. But I choose to follow my heart instead of my head. I gave up everything – friends, comfort, sleep, fat salary, fame, etc to be with the one I love.

No doubt, there have been lots of ups and downs in our relationship as well as painful experiences that make me wonder if I was wrong to fall in love with him in the first place. But the occasional sweet experiences that outweigh the pain make the relationship worthwhile and difficult to fall out of love with him.

Yet sometimes when I consider other people’s relationships, I can’t help but envy and wish to be in their shoes. At times like this though, I am reminded that the grass is only greener on the other side because someone put in the effort and worked hard to make it so.

So I have decided to renew my vow to the one I love instead of giving up on him. I will stick with him through thick and thin, I will continue to love him with every fibre of my being and do whatever it takes to make this relationship work. We have come too far to give up on each other. Last few years were good despite the challenges but I know without a shadow of doubt that the coming years will be an awesome with international opportunities to impact lives together plus, we will give birth to babes that would transform other businesses.

Wondering who this man is? His name is Mr Entrepreneur. I gave up my 9-5 job to be with him. Although the relationship hasn’t been a bed of roses but our love for each is genuine and the experience has been rewarding.

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